This blog and what it needs to become.

                A few months back I made the decision to join the ranks of millions of other dweebs like me out there on the net and start a blog. I started the blog for one simple reason; I wanted to write. I’ve been an actor now for more than a decade, but it’s only been over these past couple of years that I’ve taken any kind of serious crack at writing. Although I’ve been working on creating my own pilots and scripts on the regular for a little while now, I still hesitate to call myself a writer. The writers out there that I love and respect have a far better grasp of the English language than that of an advanced 7^th grader, which is right about where I'm currently at. (I really, really wish I paid more attention during English class back in high school. At the time I never thought I’d be doing this shit.) So, while I’m still not comfortable calling myself a writer, I am very comfortable calling myself a storyteller. Telling stories for me in one form or another is what gets me out of bed in the morning. It’s what’s most important to me in this life as far as a art/career goes. Blogging, I've found, is a great way to get your stories out there.

                Back in February, when I made my first blog post, I made it because at that time I had nothing else to write. I had just come off a very busy, yet very disappointing, year of trying to sell my first pilot. I was incredibly bummed by the realization of just how difficult the process of actually trying to sell your first script really is. I had no desire to pour myself into another project at that time. To be honest, I didn’t really have any other great ideas back then either. So, I started a blog as a way to write every day, which turned into every week, which is now sadly once a month. The reason the posts have gotten so sparse is because I now have a few scripts I’m currently working on and need to get finished asap. That means that sitting for two hours every couple days and writing a story about my hatred for brunch or falling in a puddle of my own piss, needed to take a backseat to the scripts that will, hopefully one day, make all my dreams come true.

Even with other scripts in the works and never enough time for all of them, the idea of keeping a blog has really grown on me, and I’d like to get a little more serious about it. If I’m going to keep it though, I need to make a few changes. The Fat Kid Chronicles, as it stands now, is more or less a messy collection of thoughts and anecdotes without any real structure or collective viewpoint. I feel like most of what’s here is just a bunch of glorified facebook status updates. While many people have told me they’ve enjoyed reading my posts and that they’ve found them amusing, which warms my heart and is always nice to hear, the blog as it is now is not enough for me. I’d like the blog to be something more if I’m going to continue it. I’d like to accomplish a little something with it. I’d like it to be something that not only makes people laugh, but also educates them, inspires them, and can maybe even help a few folks here and there. In addition to that, and maybe the real reason for this change, I want my blog to be something that helps...me. 

I’ll be honest with you reader friend, as I type these last few lines I can feel a little anxiety rushing through my body. That’s because in order to change this blog, I need to change myself. I am about to embark on a great adventure. The road ahead will be a long and difficult one, but I am hopeful about the possibilities and excited and to begin. To be quite honest though, I’m also a little scared. I guess that’s a good thing though, right?  That’s what being alive all about.

So, what’s this new blog going to be? C’mon back tomorrow and I’ll tell you all about it.